You're my favourite disaster

I wouldn’t dream of having cosmetic surgery if it wasn’t for this condition I have which means it’s safer for me
to have a mastectomy. I tried for a while to weigh up not having them reconstructed, just having flappy bits of skin, but I know I couldn’t. I’m 19 years old, I’d love to be so ( I
Can’t think of a better word) un- vain. And Brave! But before all this happened I was happy with my boobs, and now even thats gone to he’ll.

And so listening to all this about unsafe implants makes a scary situation even more terrifying. I really do try my best to not be a self- pitying wreck, but today I am failing and sometimes you just have to let yourself.

I’m not having a good day.